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I wanna request a dating Rindou Haitani ❤️✨

Thanks ❤️✨

Dating Bonten Rindou Haitani pt.2 <3

=͟͟͞͞ ⌧ : YESSSSS MA’AM SHDHDHDHD (I wasn’t sure which Rindou ver u were after so I did bonten ver :)) 💕

DISAPPEARING ACT . rindou often disappears for weeks at a time, showing up at home as if it's nothing. a brief exchange triggers a factory reset in him, but you're not as open to it as he expected you to be...

prompt used "better than me disappearing for good. / is it?"

with married!rindou + fem!reader

warnings cursing. a lot of cursing. angst? rindou is an idiot and possessive.

you never got to see your husband anymore. so much so that you considered the chance of it happening next to nothing. you knew what you were getting into being in an relationships with him; lots of meetings and flights to other cities all meant extended time away from home.

you would've been a little more forgiving had he chosen to tell you these things. but no. morning after morning, you wake up to him gone without a trace, without consideration for how you feel. was he alive? was he with someone else? did he not care enough to call or even send a text?

it was as if you lived alone, and a stranger crashed at your place every once in a while. and while you shared polite exchanges, no amount of small talk could overshadow how bleak your marriage was.

it was eleven days before he showed up again. you were, surprisingly, awake when he returned. he was perfectly groomed, albeit a little jaded, but still regarded you with the same coldness you endured since he started leaving. you missed the warmth of your younger days, where he would hold you close and reassure you that you were meant for each other for life.

you decided today was as good a day as any. heck, he even might be gone tomorrow and it would be like you didn't say anything.

"i'm tired of you disappearing for days and then coming back like it was nothing." you said plainly.

he slipped out of his shoes, looking down at you. rolling his eyes lightly but sighing heavily, he started to pull off his tie. "better than me disappearing for good."

a wry smile spread on your face. oh, if he only knew. "is it?"

those two words sent an arrow straight through his heart.

rindou was silent, pretending as if he didn't hear what you just said. but when you scoffed and walked away, he knew it was too real for him to overlook.

"you don't mean that." it was less of a question and more of a please, don't mean it.

you shrugged and went back to your phone, too benumbed to even look at him.

he stared at you, utterly confused as to how to tackle this. "y/n." he said firmly.

you slowly raised your head to meet his eyes, void of any care. "what?"

"i said, you don't mean that." he stood like a tree in the middle of the living area, palms growing sweaty. he loved you. he couldn't lose you, not when you both went through so much to get here.

"don't i?" you responded, placing your phone beside you. not like i see you anymore, anyway. what's the difference?

"stop fucking talking like that and answer me." he snarled. you rolled your eyes, rising to your feet.

"look, rin. who the fuck cares what i think or say? certainly not you." you sighed, pinching the bridge of your nose. "just—just forget i said anything." you turned towards your bedroom. "goodnight."

wait. he lunged forward, grabbing your arm and spinning you around to face him, backing you against a wall. caging you with arms on either side of you, he stared into your soul, hoping to get some sort of reaction out of you.

you just stared back.

his heart clenched. yeah, he was away for weeks at a time. of course he didn't tell you. why would he? why would he burden you with that information?

"you really think me going away forever is better?" his voice was a whisper, but held the sharpness of a knife. "huh? you want me gone forever?"

you sighed. "i didn't say i wanted that. i just meant that, either way, it doesn't matter. going away forever, going away for weeks and weeks but only staying for a night..." your eyes met his, glossy but fierce. "it's the same to me. i don't care what the hell you do anymore, rindou. just let me go to bed."

he studied the person he truly loved for so long, wondering when it all went downhill.

you were impatient, ducking under his arms. "shit..." you cursed, rubbing the back of your neck as you walked away.

he watched you go. and he never saw you come back.

the next morning he woke up, expecting to see you in the kitchen or watching tv, but his house was empty.

"y/n?" he called out. no answer. he pulled up his phone. no texts, no calls. he bustled around the house, looking for some indication of where you went and he found nothing.

he called his brother, thinking that he was the next best person you would've gone to, but ran had no contact from you.

rindou sat on the couch, nothing to do but sit and wait. he looked around. everything was well-kept, pristine, and sanitized. it was like no one lived here at all. no one except a lonely spouse in an eternal cycle of wait for a husband that wouldn't even give them the time of day to say, i'm heading out.

i love you.

goodbye.

he leaned back, closing his eyes. he doesn't even say goodbye.

he hated himself for it.

hours passed and he didn't move from the couch. he knew you sat there for much longer, day after day, waiting for him. no wonder you were uncaring. coming home meant nothing if he would simply leave again.

then he heard the click of the door. he practically jumped off the couch, racing over to the entrance. he saw you with a couple groceries hooked on your forearms, struggling to keep the door open long enough for you to slip inside.

he rushed over. yanking the door open with such force, it slammed into the wall causing you to jump. rindou winced a little, steadying the door from swinging wildly.

you eyes met his and your face immediately scrunched with confusion. "what are you doing here?"

"well... it's my house..?" he said dumbly.

you pressed your lips into a line. "hm."

you expected me to be gone again, he thought bitterly. he cleared his throat. "let me help you with these," he alleviated the weight off your arms, bunching up a couple bags and carrying them all in one go. "you know, you could just order them for delivery."

you sidestepped him and walked to the kitchen. "why would i do that?"

"so you can have them brought to you from the comfort of your home." he responded lightly. following robotically, he was unsure where everything was supposed to be put away.

you laughed, catching him off-guard. on closer inspection, though, he knew that wasn't a genuine laugh. "rindou, do you think i want to stay in this place any more than i have to?"

you said it so casually, grabbing a bag from him and stocking the cabinets and fridges.

his stomach swirled with much more unease than he'd ever experienced on the job. it was the way you simply didn't care anymore, talking about the rift between you and him as if you were reciting the weather report.

fight me, he wanted to say. kick, yell at me, scream at me, do anything at all to show me you're upset. he knows he fucked up. you definitely know he fucked up. so why weren't you telling him that? why weren't you cursing him out for being a bad husband? your nonchalance came from a long time being cast aside, so much so that you expected it to happen; so much so that you gave up on him.

indifference was the final nail in the coffin of your marriage, and you were about to bang it shut.

he observed you, thinking about how many times you'd busy yourself with mundane errands to feel like you were living. how many times you'd come back to this flat, putting away shit you'd probably never touch. how many times you'd listen to the silence ringing off the walls.

he set the bags down and held your shoulders, turning you to face him. "i've taken the next few days off."

you smiled insincerely. "great."

rindou felt like a kid again, when he had work up enough courage to ask you out. "we... we could spend them together."

your eyes squinted. "why?"

he spluttered. "what do you mean, why?"

you swatted his hands off your shoulders. "god, i shouldn't have said anything," you mumbled. "rindou, this is just you feeling guilty because of what i said last night, okay?"

he frowned. "it's not."

your eyebrows raised as you rummaged through another grocery bag. "it is. don't pretend like you're gonna change. what did you think we were going to do—go out together? like old times, when we were happy and in love?"

his face burned. anyone else—if it were anyone else speaking so flippantly with him, he'd have them beat til they're unconscious. and past tense? when we were in love? his brain was doing backflips trying to find a way to salvage the situation. "yes."

you laughed that fake laugh again. it grated on his ears. "that's funny. i was just feeling a little vulnerable last night, is all. had a couple of drinks and maybe was feeling sentimental about the days when everything was simple."

rindou stepped closer to you, ripping the bag away from your hands and towering over you. "it is simple. we can—"

"we can't do anything." you curled your hands into fists, your voice trembling. "can you just..?" go away?

rindou's breath caught in his chest, fully anticipating another heartless laugh.

he hated it when you cried. he hated it when you were angry. he would do anything for your eternal happiness, he realized, and he'd been falling short of his promises for far too long.

rindou leaned onto the counter, bending at the waist. his hand rested on your waist and his eyes were laser focused on your expression, a confusing mix of frustration, sadness, and the will to remain emotionless.

"baby," he whispered.

"don't fucking call me baby." you hissed.

he pursed his lips, unwilling to compromise. "pretty baby. i don't wanna go on like this." his fingers brushed your cheek. "i don't want to you to be sad anymore."

"well, isn't that righteous." you rolled your eyes though your heart ached. it ached for him, for the boyfriend he was and the husband he promised to be.

he glared at you. "would you just listen?"

"no, rindou." you shoved him away from you, despite the overwhelming urge telling you to pull him in and hug him tight. "stop acting like i'm the one making things difficult. like you're being a fucking saint trying to bring us back together when the only reason we're like this is because of you." your voice became watery, growing in volume as you finally succumbed to all the hurt and pain inside you.

"i tried to be understanding." you sobbed. "i did. i tried. you have your work and i know that it's dangerous. but seriously—you promised you'd make time for me. you promised." you sniffed, rubbing tears off your cheeks, ranting without any goal in mind. "you don't even say goodbye."

he stood frozen, your emotions hitting him square in the face and leaving him dazed. it was like the only thing he could do was stand and watch.

"i didn't want to do this." you said tearfully. "i'm sorry i said anything, okay? i'm sorry. just—leave me alone."

his eyes narrowed. "never. i'm never leaving."

your glassy eyes shot up to meet his with a hard look of their own.

"i love you, y/n. and i'm never letting you go." he said firmly, stepping closer and closer to you. he was done beating around the bush; you should know that no matter how many times you push him away, he will never leave you. he'd make up for his mistakes; all you had to do was give him a chance.

you scoffed. "love? you love me?"

he caged you against the opposite counter with two arms on either side of you. "yeah. i do."

you stared up at him, tears staining your cheeks. "you're a liar."

"y/n." he growled—a warning.

"can't go back into the world having the poor little wife weighing on your conscious, is that it?" you snapped. "never stopped you before."

"y/n."

"no." you ducked under his arm, leaving the kitchen. you evaded his attempts to pull you back, running to the closet. grabbing a coat and your purse, you slipped on your shoes.

"where the fuck are you going?" rindou yelled after you. "this conversation isn't over."

"it is for me." you mumbled, throwing the front door open and ignoring the fire in the pit of your stomach. you got into your car and started it up. the garage opened at an agonizing pace, enough time for rindou to come bursting out the door. he stood at your window.

"y/n, you are not leaving. get out of the car."

"fuck off." you grit your teeth, your eyes raising to the rearview mirror to reverse. you screeched to a halt when you saw rindou's purple hair in the reflection. you gaped, rolling down your window and whipping your head to face him. "are you insane? move!"

he shook his head, standing in all his glory right behind the car. his arms were crossed and his weight rested on one hip; the picture of stubbornness. "you're gonna have to run me over."

you scoffed, laughing breathlessly at the absurd situation. "i'll call the police."

"you won't."

you grabbed your phone. "i will, don't try and stop me from leaving."

"you won't call the police, and you wanna know why?" rindou let his head fall to his shoulder. "you love me. i know you do."

you opened your mouth to retort.

"don't even try to deny it." he chuckled lowly. "you're just protecting yourself, baby. you're protecting yourself from the nightmare you call a husband, right?"

your eyes rounded, looking at him with an unreadable expression.

he walked to your side of the car, reaching through the opening to flick the window button. he slipped his hand out as it began to slowly slide back up.

"leave, then. just know i'm not going to stop my efforts to get you back." he smiled as he went back into the house.

the window closed completely.

you were brimming with annoyance, yet you couldn't help but feel a pang of heartache when you pulled out of the driveway, leaving your house—and rindou—behind.

this was so self-indulgent lol. i know they mean well, but when people apologize so quickly and with such intensity, i just get frustrated that i had to get to such a low point to see any remorse or change from them. and of course, i can't argue without crying my eyes out. anyway, do we want a part two?

© miniimight ! thanks for reading <3

Rindou is weak when he has a crush 🙈

Not a simple infatuation crush. An actual crush like he really wants to pursue a relationship with you. He becomes very careful with his words, not wanting to mess up a smooth flirt and not wanting to accidentally say something that comes off wrong and scares you away.😭

You’ve known each other for awhile so he can’t really understand why he feels so nervous around you all of a sudden. He doesn’t show it but he’s internally screaming at himself to play it cool when he’s around you. Ran notices Rindou’s change in behavior. Rindou can mask anything from anyone, except his older brother. If you and the Haitani Brothers were hanging out, the older Haitani would purposely bring up an embarassing story about the younger so you can ask about it. (It wouldn’t be terribly embarrassing, but to Rindou it is because he wants to live up to his cool persona). Rindou would give this death glare to Ran before changing his expression when he looks at you, trying to save himself from explaining the story.

When you’re at the Haitani’s place and Rindou leaves the room to get you a snack and a glass of water, Ran literally appears out of nowhere with a baby book in his hands. Rindou’s baby book. And flops down on the seat next to you, asking if you’d like to see all these adorable pictures, knowing you’ll say yes. When Rindou comes back seeing Ran show you the photos of him crying while explaining the backstory, he instantly imagined shooting himself in the head. But his face softens and a small blush appears on his face when you look at him with your beautiful smile, telling him that he’s always been so cute.☺️(“So she thinks I’m cute?” Is what takes over his mind all day).

Rindou would wuss out when it’s just you and him hanging out and there’s that moment where a kiss feels like it’s about to happen. In those moments he feels like he forgets how to do anything, especially kissing. So he doesn’t go in for it. And if he were going to kiss you, he’d like to plan it out so it can be perfect, not only for him but for you. He wants to ask you out properly. Kiss you in a proper setting. All for you to know that he’s taking you serious. 😘

When he thinks about you late at night, he knows he has to make a move before it’s too late. He hates the thought of losing you to another guy. He wont let that happen.🙂‍↔️

He’s never felt so strongly for anyone before so this is all new to him, it makes him nervous. So nervous he goes to his older brother’s door and prays he’s awake so he doesn’t disturb his sleep (he still thinks about that time he hid away from Ran when his sleep was disturbed). When he gently knocks, he hears Ran hum and he walks in. Rindou sighs before asking his brother for romantic advice and it makes Ran sit up with that smile on his face. The elder Haitani teases him which leads to their average sibling bickering that lasts forever. 🤦‍♀️ (“is my little baby brother finally growing up?” “Shut up!”)

Rindou just wants to be a proper gentleman for you🩷 he wants to be your man. 💋

Boy of my Dreams | Haitani Rindou Headcanons

Word Count: 1.1k

notes: MINORS DNI !! fem reader, lots of pet names, suggestive, soft tooth-rotting fluff, Rindou is the softest boy

notes: this is very self-indulgant and screams "i am single" but idc i love Rindou with all my heart djfash ! also tenjiku haitani supremacy

- Rindou plays games on his computer a lot and loves when you sit on his lap as he plays, especially if you’re facing him and hugging him as he does.

Rindou was in the middle of a match, his headset hooked in and his deep voice prattling on about in-game actions and catching up with his friends. “Dude I’m not responding to that, my girl is right here” and you were, sitting comfortably with your legs on either side of him and your head curled into his neck. You could fall asleep right here, you almost were as you took in the smell of your boyfriend and cuddled further into him, your arms wrapped around his neck. “Shion says hi” he says to you. He hadn’t noticed how sleepy you were until you let out a little “mm hi Madarame” in response. “She says hi,” Rin says before flipping his mic up, turning it off, and setting his controller down. “You wanna go lay down, baby?” He asks you, his voice soft and caring. You shake your head, squeezing him softly, and nuzzle into his neck even more. “‘m good, finish your game…” you say, softly yawning. He chuckles, softened by your cute sleepiness. “Nah I’d rather cuddle with my sleepy girl instead.” He flips his mic down to talk with his friends again, “Hey guys imma go, I’ll be on tomorrow or somethin’” saying his goodbyes and signing off. “Alright,” he sighs, standing and picking you up at the same time, your legs wrapped around him. “‘s nap time.” he plops you down onto the bed and finds his place beside you, the two of you cuddling close until sleep takes you both. 

- He gets very excited to show you his new beats that he comes up with, playing them for you with a cute proud look on his face. even more so when you dance along

You’d never been the best dancer, always feeling too awkward to openly express the beat to a song when it came on. But something was different when it was just you and your boyfriend in his room listening to something he made. He’d texted you very excitedly to come over and listen to a new track he’d whipped up and of course, you came right away. Supporting his passions was important to you. “Okay okay so I was just fuckin around on the tables nothin' serious but I think I came up with something really good,” he said as he led you to his room, sitting you down on his bed as if he were about to break the biggest news. You got comfortable, sitting crisscross at the end of his bed, facing him. He was so cute when he was like this, his hair tied back in a small ponytail and his glasses sat on the tip of his nose. His excited smile to top it all off. He took a seat at his desk and spun around in the chair, opening up the recording he’d made earlier that day. “You just gotta listen im so proud of this shit babe I really think I got it this time,” You giggle at how adorable he’s being, earning you a side-eye. “Okay okay just play it already, silly!” Rindou lets out a sigh before pressing the space bar and leaning back to watch your reaction. The beat was good, really good. It reminded you of club music in the best way possible. You began to tap your knee with your eyes closed, getting a feel for the beat, before starting to move your body, standing up on his bed and dancing around as the music picked up pace. You looked down at him, the two of you sharing the biggest grin known to man. “This IS really fuckin good Rin, im so proud of you!” you say over the music, closing your eyes and getting really into it. He couldn’t help the blush that dusted his cheeks as he watched you.

- He’s very blushy and gets kinda flustered when you look all pretty for him. just for him. 

“how do i look?” you ask as you come out of the bathroom, doing a little spin for him in the new dress he bought you. You had your makeup and hair done, looking ready and prepared for your date tonight. Rindou was sitting on your shared bed scrolling through his phone waiting for you to finish up, now finding his eyes racking over your figure and his face heating up at the sight. He stands, walking over to you and pulling you in close by the waist out of impulse. “f-fuck, you just” he struggles, his eyes struggling to hold contact with yours. “you’re so fuckin pretty how am I this lucky?” His heart felt like it was about to explode as he tried to hide his flushed face behind the blonde and blue hair that framed it. You could’ve mistaken his pupils for hearts the way he looked at you. You felt so loved in his presence. “Rinnn…” you whine, shoving against him, “you can’t just say stuff like thatt” you smile as you lean in to kiss him, your lips meeting his plush ones. It was soft and full of love and want and desire. God, he loved you so much. and he wanted every part of you so bad. He tried deepening the kiss but you pushed away from him, catching your breath. “Let's wait till we get back okay, baby?” He reluctantly nods, his forehead resting against yours. “I just love you so much I can’t help myself…”

- he’s only ever possessive of you when it comes to his brother, he really doesn’t want Ran to steal you away - he enjoys when the three of you can hang out normally though. when his brother isn’t being scary and intimidating 

“She’s mine,” he says, pulling you closer into his chest and resting his chin on your shoulder, his brows furrowed and scowling at his older brother.   Ran laughs, brushing stray hairs behind his ears, “what? can’t share for once?” He says teasingly. You knew Ran was never serious about his remarks towards you so they never made you uncomfortable. Still, though, he really knew how to get under Rindou’s skin. “No.” Rin lets out, a slight pout in his voice that melts your heart. He gives you a squeeze and you cuddle back into him, letting your eyes close with a soft smile on your face. “She wouldn’t want your lanky ass anyway,” Rindou finishes, receiving a silent nose laugh from you. Ran scoffs, crossing his arms, “Keep talkin so I can beat your ass in front of your girl.” He says with no real threat behind his words. “So you admit it? she’s my girl.” hook line and sinker. You open your eyes just in time to see Ran roll his own before plopping on the other side of the couch, his ponytail swaying as he does. “Just turn the damn movie on, Rin. Damn always gotta be startin shit” he grumbles, and you let out a giggle, clinging onto Rindou’s tattooed arm

Thinking about protective Rindou again☺️

I’ve said something like this before but Rindou is the type of man that will always have your back. Always. And that would never change. He’s devoted to you in every way possible and he never lets you down. Especially when it comes to defending you.

He’s never let a single soul disrespect you. He will handle anyone who tries to test you because if anyone’s got a problem with you, they got a problem with him too!🗣️

If you’re beefing with a girl and end up fighting her, Rindou would definitely hype you up: “yea kick her ass baby!🤳”. He gives you a congratulating hug and kiss after you win😘

Since Rindou loves you so much, when you’re ready to be more open and tell him more about how your toxic family members or ex friends hurt you in the past, you can see his eye twitch as he listens. And lord when you cry mid story telling, internally he’s raising hell on earth, getting your lick back for you. On the outside, he pulls you onto his lap and gently runs his hand up and down your back when you latch onto him for comfort.🩷

He knows it’s wrong to wish bad on other people but he’s Rindou Haitani. He’s not a perfectly moral person. Yes he is a good man, but to a certain extent. Not surprising since he’s a criminal, a hot one😍. But if he can’t do anything about the people in your past, he’d hope karma hits them hard.

The new information you tell him has him pacing at night because he’s so pissed he can’t sleep. It bothers him thinking about those people living their lives as if they did nothing wrong, as if they didn’t traumatize you. The thought ticked him off so bad, he went to his home gym and immediately started punching the heavy sand bag with extreme force. He wanted to get rid of anyone that made you cry. ❌

Shit if it was up to him, he’d rewrite your story so none of that pain ever happened to you. He finds the saying “everything happens for a reason” bullshit. Most of the time, there is no reason. It’s just an unfair event no one deserves to experience. Rindou knows he can’t do anything about the things that have already happened but..

He CAN protect you from any harm that tries to find you in the present and the future. Rindou will do anything to make sure his girl never cries because of what someone else did to her again.

I think Rindou can skateboard🛹

He would be really good at all those tricks you see other skateboarders do but better. Rindou always does it better. He’s the type to take almost anything as a challenge and will keep practicing til he’s perfect and once he gets something down, his beautiful smile will never fade as he has his fun.☀️

On a nice day, he likes to go to the skatepark with Ran, bringing his bluetooth speaker to play his favorite songs which other skaters there also love to vibe to (Rindou has the best playlist) and brings his stash of pre-rolls in his bag to smoke later because who doesn’t like a chill sesh after having a fun time?🍃 Oh! And can’t forget the alcohol in the cooler

What really makes Rindou’s day though is when you come around to see him. He’s a weak man when it comes to you (he won’t admit that) so I feel like if he spotted you mid board trick, he’d almost bust his ass but successfully save himself to not look silly and act like that didn’t happen😭

When he starts teaching you how to skateboard, you can’t even focus on what the hell he’s telling you when his hands are holding your waist keeping you balanced. And god feeling his muscles as you hold onto him drives you crazy😵‍💫

When you try to skate in a straight line without Rindou’s help, you get the hang of it a bit and he cheers you on saying you got it. (You’re going at the speed of a turtle🐢). He chuckles seeing you panic when you start leaning too much towards the left after you tried to give yourself more speed. Your body goes into a frozen mode so all you’re doing is quietly screaming like “aaaaaaaah” unable to rebalance yourself after Rindou tells you to shift your weight.

He catches up to you quickly, since you didn’t really go that far, and holds onto you. Your arms instantly fly around his neck, holding onto him tightly as you giggle out a nervous sigh and he asks if you’re okay, clearly wanting to laugh at your failed attempt at speeding up on his board.

“Chill sweetheart, y’know I won’t let anything happen to you as long as I’m here right?”

You and Rindou have a special relationship 👀

Well, friendship…bond? Let’s say bond.

A bond only you two understand. Sorta. Kinda. Maybe. You’re both chill with it so does it matter if you understand it or not? (Don’t answer that). It’s been like this for years. Ever since you first met as kids on the playground, it felt like magic. You two immediately got along as if you were made for each other. You both got a little crush on each other that was never confessed. But you remained great friends. Even after he got locked up in Juvie and met up with you the moment he could see you again, it felt like he never left.

Everything always feels natural with Rindou. You never have anything to hide and neither does he. So many nights spent talking about your personal lives, so many days wandering off to wherever his motorcycle takes the both of you and talking about your dreams. Rindou was an active criminal (still is), but he never made you feel in danger. He made you feel safe. And it always felt like you were the only people that could really see and understand each other. That’s why you’re best friends.😊

Best friends, is what you always refer to each other as. I mean he is your best friend and you’re his. You always have each other’s backs. Like when he beat up one of your ex boyfriends for verbally abusing you and cheating on you, when you confronted a psychotic girl he used to date cuz she was trying to cause something horrible to Rindou because he broke up with her, when he taught you self defense after you gossiped to him about some guy trying to stalk you (he dealt with him right after), when you would defend Rindou’s name when other people would talk shit about him and his brother when they know nothing. And of course, doing what best friends are for, supporting each other through hard times. There was never a moment you failed each other in a time of need. 🫂

You’re both there for the good and the bad, always.

Best friends is what you always refer to each other as, even when there were clear moments of flirting between one other. Even after Rindou first told you he loves you and you told him you love him too. Best friends, is what you always refer to each other as after you’d become lovers for a good while before having to break it off due to something that simply got in the way. Most of the time it was because his gang would get into conflict and he didn’t want you to possibly be involved. ☹️

You were always good after breaking off. No hard feelings. You’re somehow able to work platonically and romantically. No ones ever seen that before so it was definitely odd to others but it wasn’t to you two. That was the cycle you had as best friends. Be normal besties, then flirt, date, then life gets in the way and break up. But you were both cool with each other because none of you did anything wrong. Especially Rindou. Rindou never did anything wrong. Yes you two did have arguments sometimes but it wasn’t anything jeopardizing, it would just be normal couple disagreements and you always made up in the end because you’re both understanding and able to come to an agreement. You two always worked so perfectly. 🤞

You wish you didn’t.

Now you’re in your apartment, sitting by the window looking at the view…missing Rindou. He disappeared a few years ago. You didn’t know why until the news started talking about that criminal organization, Bonten. It wasn’t hard to connect the dots. You know he’s part of it with his older brother.

A tear falls from your face as you remember all your memories with him. The moments you’d share that flirty eye contact in social gatherings, the moments he’d hug and kiss you like you were something precious to protect, the moments he’d call you beautiful with so much honesty and love in his deep voice that was music to your ears, the moments you’d get into silly trouble together and run away from a security guard because you trespassed, the moments you’d laugh til you both cried, the moments you’d hold hands while looking up at the night sky, and you remember how he never looked at you with lustful intent. Only love. You never felt like you needed to have sex with him to satisfy him, you never felt like you needed to send provocative images of yourself to him, you never felt like you needed to change because Rindou Haitani made you feel like a diamond. 💎

No other guy made you feel the way Rindou made you feel. Most of them were all snobs only wanting one thing from you. Some just didn’t meet your standards. It was so hard to move on when all you’re looking for is Rindou, your best friend. Yup, you still refer to him as your best friend. He’ll always be your best friend even when you’re not in each other’s lives now. You can’t think of him as a stranger. You hope he feels the same way and it makes you wish you hated him. Yet you wish to see him one day and start over again. Feel that magic just one more time and this time it can go right. Nothing will get in the way. Just one more time. You wish on the same star every single night. Just one more time.

You sigh when you feel stupid for wishing for that. But you can’t help it. He’s special to you. You’re special to him too, you just don’t know it but, you can feel it. Rindou never stopped missing you. He looks up at the same star you do. Wishing for one more shot. He wants to make it right this time. He’s willing to make it right this time. You’re the woman he wants to be with for the rest of his life, but just how will he get his best friend back? Rindou thinks about you day and night. He wants to see you again, He needs to see you again. He will see you again.

Your friends are all moved on with their lives, always talking about how happy they are with their soon to be husbands. You support them with a smile but inside you want to cry. You want to move on but you can’t. Rindou can’t leave your mind. Why couldn’t he have treated you badly? why couldn’t he have cheated on you? Why couldn’t he have just done something horrible to you so you can move on? Why did he have to be so perfect? My god….

You wish you hated him.

Rindou gives the best cuddles🫂

Nothing is better than being in the strong comforting arms of your lover. Especially if you’ve had a bad day and want to shut the world out.

Being with Rindou feels like a breath of fresh air and all the loudness in your mind becomes quiet as if there’s a bubble surrounding the both of you, blocking out everything else on the outside. The only thing that matters is the divine man in your vision. The only thing that matters, is this moment right now.

Feeling his fingers brush through your hair, the comfortable warmth from his body, hearing his soothing heartbeat matching the rhythm your own as if you’re one. It feels like you’re two puzzle pieces completing one another. 🧩

You’re not the type of person who wants to talk about their feelings right away when you’re upset. You just wanna cool down and process your emotions first. So, you pretty much end up in a non verbal state. At the moment, all you want is a quiet place and a comforting presence with you. And Rindou understands that because he’s the same way. It works for the both of you.

Cuddles first, then talk 💬🩷

Rindou makes you feel safe in a way you’ll cherish for the rest of your life. You don’t feel pressured to keep up a front like you used to be. Now you can just melt in the arms of the man who loves you and will do anything to take away whatevers bothering you.

“Bad day huh?”

“C’mere sweetheart, I gotchu”

Rindou is your best friend👫

That gets on your fuckin nerves. Sometimes you wonder how you became friends with him. It’s like he spawned from mid air and you two just became friends🤷‍♀️

You always had the same classes together in school and he was always in trouble. Always. You’re surprised he was never expelled. He’s just suspended majority of the time and would come back as if he never got in trouble for beating some kid up in the hallway for looking at him wrong. Rindou also likes getting people in trouble by riling them up to yell insane profanities when the principal would walk by. He’s such a shitbag. A dreamy one. ✨

Clearly his most favorite person to bother is you with how much he distracts you in class when he’s bored out of his mind. You’d feel a tiny poke of a pencil behind your shoulder and he’d whisper:

“Move your big ass head I can’t see”

“How about you sit up instead of slouching, hump back”

This would always start the quiet bickering in the back of the classroom which always lead you both to getting in trouble for not paying attention to the lesson. Rindou laughs seeing how you glare at him, especially when he does that childish “ooooo” when you’re called to the main office. Or the times during gym class when he scares the shit out of you by randomly slam dunking a basketball right by you. Or the times he disturbs your beauty sleep by blasting a new track he made outside your window all because you weren’t answering his texts that were asking about what notes he missed when he was suspended. Rindou gives you a headache sometimes but he’s actually really sweet and smart. He has your back when someone bothers you and handles whoever decided to piss you off. He really does study the notes you give him, you can tell by how well he does on tests. And throughout all the years you’ve known him, he’s never crossed you. He just likes annoying your ass. 😭

Sometimes your girlfriends tease you about him, singing that stupid song from elementary school about kissing in a tree. You always said he’s just a friend. And he is. You and Rindou have never done anything more than what friends do at all. You two just come off closer to an outsider point of view but really, you’re normal friends that have looked out for each other. Even after you pinch the shit out of his ear for shaking your soda when you’re not looking so it can splash all over your face. You’re so comfortable with Rindou, you never saw him as more than a friend.

That is until he started talking about a girl he was interested in. You didn’t know why you felt bothered when he told you he started talkin with a girl. It made your heart sink as you realized what you were feeling. Jealousy. But you couldn’t show that. As a best friend, you supported him and feigned excitement for him. It’s not like he couldn’t pull girls. Rindou had hella girls swooning over him left and right and could have any of them if he wanted to. But he never did. You don’t know why.

Rindou’s reason: he’s always wanted you. Well not always. His feelings for you were confusing. He found himself in love with you some days then get scared and gaslight himself into thinking he’s only interested in you because you’re the only girl he really knows. It’d only work for a few hours though and soon enough he was right back to accepting he’s in love with you. But he never sensed that you felt the same way. He’s spoken to Ran about it and of course his big brother’s advice was to move on and not lose sleep over it. So, that’s what he did. Rindou just decided to click on a random girl’s name in his dms and respond to her, starting something new. It felt nice. The only downside to moving on from his crush on you was how he kept having dreams about dating you. It was like the universe was toying with him and it pissed him off.🙂‍↕️

She doesn’t like me like that. Why are these dreams coming now? He doesn’t understand.

Your nights have become quiet and it’s odd not having Rindou bother you at late hours. Now it was a blessing for you to not be jumpscared out of your sleep but you missed the way he would randomly appear at your place. As you rest in your bed, you start remembering the features you love about him. How beautiful his violet eyes are and his perfect his smile with those gorgeous white teeth. The way he leans back, rolling to his side when he’s having a really good laugh. The way he is so sweet to you when you need a good friend to listen to your words. You find that his intelligence (street wise and academically) is the most attractive to you and you love the way he’d look so focused during your study sessions. Sure Rindou has his many moments of getting on your damn nerves but he’s never actually made you upset. You giggle to yourself thinking about the recent events of your bickering. I’m screwed. You think to yourself. Screwed.🤦‍♀️

*Ding*

You pick up your phone and smile seeing Rindou’s name but the look on your face quickly drops reading his text.

I think I’m gonna ask this girl out

You’re convinced the universe is fuckin with you.

I got a man, but I want you

I got a man, but I want you

And it's just nerves, it's just dick

Makin' me think 'bout someone new…

No, because, Rindou is actually making me think about my loyalty ... 😍

Update, we broke off

Rindou can sting me with that jellyfish of a hair and I'd thank him.